The Courage To Leap

For several years, I have felt like I have been living life with one foot in and one foot out. I’ve spent a great deal of time contemplating what it would be like to fully live life on my own terms. As time passed I slowly began to develop somewhat of an inner rage. Not only was I constantly feeling like something was missing, but I started to feel like wanting to leap so bad and yet not doing it made me a coward. As I often say, there is no honor in staying put or putting your gifts and wishes on hold for the sake of comfortability. I no longer wanted to use my family and my responsibilities as an excuse for not doing what I am supposed to be doing. I think sometimes our reasons for staying in careers that are no longer fulfilling or continuing on paths that we know are not leading us to our ultimate desired destination has a lot more to do with fear of the unknown and choosing what is ultimately the easier option. We tell ourselves if I don’t stay, I’m putting my family’s well being at jeopardy. But is that really the case? Is that what life has really come to? Am I really telling myself that I can’t provide for my family or accomplish a vibrant fulfilling life without being employed by a company that I have no ownership in? Don’t get me wrong, I am not at all saying that employment is a bad thing and I am not saying that if you don’t drop everything and start working for yourself you are a weak person. Lord knows these last ten years of employment have been a blessing to me and the experience help to build my current confidence. But what I am saying is this, if we are allowing ourselves to say no to our gifts and talents because of fear and a scarcity mindset we need to rethink things a bit. That is something I’ve recently done. This past week I took a very major life step. It is a step and decision that wasn’t made at the perfect time, but I feel with every ounce of my being it was made at the right time. I decided to turn in my resignation and get to work building the kind of life I want for myself and for my family. When I started the DaddyBe Blog I talked about how I wanted it to be the type of blog that documented the journey and growth of a Husband and Father striving to be an entrepreneur. Ultimately I came to a fork in the road, I could either be satisfied and shut up talking about it or I could do the thing that I’ve known needed to be done for a while and put my action where my mouth and heart are. I chose the latter. If anyone wants to know how that feels, let me tell you. First it feels liberating. Then it feels like, what in the hell did I just do? Then it feels like, I got this, I was born for this. And every bit of that feels absolutely awesome. I have a wife that backs me wholeheartedly, I have children that provide all the motivation a man needs. And I have a family and close friends that are praying for me and eager to see me succeed. Most importantly, I have grown up with the power of Faith and Action very deeply instilled in me. There’s this Biblical Parable of the Talents and recently it has been on my mind and in my heart a lot. I began to feel like me remaining in my current situation was a lot like the foolish man that took his talent and buried it in the sand. That was something I could no longer live with. The future isn’t mine to know. But today, in this moment, I know, I have the courage and I have the drive to BE. I am going build something from the ground up and I am excited about what the future holds. Stay Tuned ….. There’s lots of great things coming.

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